Yes, I am now officially on xanga... better late than never I always say. So whats the whole deal with this thing anyway? I post an entry and then people read it and give a comment and/or eprops? Is that the basics of it all? Fair enough, I guess I can spare a portion of my time to do that. So anyway, hello and welcome to my brand-tastic new xanga site. My only hope is that I can continue to stay in touch with my old peeps and possibly even meet new ones. I'll share some of my daily ventures for u'r reading pleasures.
First, lets begin with a short intro about u'r humble host. I would describe myself as "the typical nice guy." U know the type, quiet, shy, keeps to myself most of the time... it would probably take alot for me to muster up the courage to try to talk to strangers.. actually, more like people that I don't know yet, cuz stranger sounds so dark for some reason. This was my true nature growing up, but I think I've gotten better with that over time, I can still be shy and quiet most of the time, but when I'm around my friends I tend to loosen up a bit, sometimes I go overboard and they would just look at me as if I am the weirdest idiot in the world... ahh but thats ok. Its good to be like that sometimes, especially nowadays with all thats happening around the world, sometimes u just have to let loose and enjoy your life. I'm not saying go get wasted and throw your life away a la "carpe diem", but more like enjoy the simple things that u have in this world, why would u feel down about yourself? U'r alive! If u'r not satisfied with where you are in life, U can do something about that. Pick yourself up, forget the negativities, go out there and work hard. We all have the power to do that, and even if u don't get to where u wanted to be... at least the effort was put forth. I'd rather have that than the feeling of regret.
I've thought about this for many years already, that if I could go back about 15-16 years, around the time when I first came to the U.S., with all the knowledge I have now and start over again.. things would be so different. I would kick start my brain and get my confidence going... see the truth is, I really had the potential to have been a difference maker perhaps? or maybe just someone outstanding at school, and I'm not talking about the whole popularity contest junk, because one of the ugliest trends in public schools back then was the "being one of the in-crowd" garbage, thats probably still the case today, and I don't think it will change anytime soon. I just don't know, I mean for some, it just comes naturally, for most its just alot of hard work. Do you know how hard it is to try to please everyone? and people actually want to do this, in any way possible, even to the point of hurting themselves, and unfortunately, they also end up hurting others. I know it, cuz I was there too... on both sides of the spectrum. I lost good friends, traded them in for a bunch of people who were "popular" but would stab u in the back in a heartbeat, so that they can elevate themselves. I would've never let myself get drawn into that again, its not something that I'm very proud of, but what I'm proud of is what I came away from that experience, I learned that u don't need 100 people around you to make yourself feel important. Remember that old saying "be yourself"? Its as simple as that, just be yourself, if people don't like it then tell yourself its ok, maybe these are not the right people. If they do like it, then at least u know that they like the real you, and not a customized version of yourself that u have to create each day just so that u can be "in" It's just not worth it. Keep it simple, be happy.
Does being the most popular person in school make you happy? maybe it does, and to most, maybe they think this will make them happy... but trying to be something that u't not can come with many sacrifices. Here are a few from my own experience, you will do things that u don't want to do, you will lose good friends, the kind that would be there for u no matter what and help u if u were in trouble, u will face peer pressure, and even to the point where u won't even be controlling ur actions anymore, u will become this person that u won't be proud to see when u look in the mirror, and everyday u will hurt other people because u want to maintain u'r social status. Well, these are just a few things that could happen.
U'r life is your own, and u can become whatever u want to be. Take control of u'r own life, and treat others the way that u want to be treated in return. Its all about respect, for authority, for family, for friendship, for other people that u don't know (yet), and for yourself. If u respect others, and yourself, u will be surprised at how far u will go in life. Value life itself, and not the material things in it. Your life is your most valued possession, so u should take care of it.
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